Thursday, 27 March 2014

My Story

Ok, so today's post is slightly more personal, infact it is probably the most personal I am gonna get, so here goes I guess...

Part of the reason that I started blogging was because I was going through a pretty rough time. Ok, scratch that, it was probably one of the worst times of my life to date. At the age of 16 I had been diagnosed with Clinical Depression, anxiety and eating problems (two weeks before my GCSE's, great timing brain). I was having a pretty rough time, and I was always worse during those long summer months, when I was alone a lot of the time. My boyfriend had dumped me because 'he couldn't make me happy' and I had struggled with my GCSEs as I was blacking out and too exhausted from life to revise. I was too scared to open my own laptop (for no apparent reason).

Now being a young person with mental health problems you feel so alone, like you are the only person in the world with this 'black void'. I soon found out this is not true. At all. After feeling alone and tired of keeping my diagnoses a secret I came out so to speak. I told my friends and although I didn't feel better, I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. What amazed me was that a few weeks later people came to talk to me, they were going through similar things and needed someone to talk to or wanted advise on what to do. This happened several times and it surprised me to know how many people were going through similar things as me, and how when I felt most alone, I wasn't.

Suffering from mental health problems has made me a stronger person, and made me realise how  lucky I am. I was lucky to have supportive friends who understood that sometimes I will have a panick attack (and leave a gig midway through to help calm me down), or I will have those days where I will just cry and want to be alone. I have parents who payed for my treatment (the NHS is great sometimes, but their Teenage Mental Health System is rubbisho) and a boyfriend who will be there when I have an awful episode and stay up all night just to make sure I am safe and don't hurt myself.

I am still struggling with my illnesses today, but I am much happier, and healthier, and have learnt that even though this bad thing has happened to me I can use my experiences to help others. And the most important thing I learnt is that you are never alone. 1 in 10 teenagers suffer from mental health problems, that is 3 in every class, no matter what horrible feeling anf thoughts you are experiencing you are not a bad person, and you are never ever alone.

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  1. Wonderful post. ;-)
    Lovely greets Nessa

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  2. Well done for opening up. Really brave post! :)

    http://www.bee-on-a-budget.blogspot.com

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  3. wow your blog is amazing :D

    http://myroutinesjade.blogspot.co.uk/ here is mine if you want to check it out

    have a nice day

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    2. Thank you Jadiee, I shall definitely give it a look now! H xx

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  4. I have felt the same way, the feeling that you are alone in this big world and I know how horrible it is. You are really brave for opening up like this. Stay strong!

    Love from Sweden.

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    1. Thank you Amanda, and I guess we all feel alone at some point, it's just tough to realise that we are actually never alone H xx

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  5. I'm glad you are getting better xxx

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